I strive to be a woman after God's own heart.

My daily goal is always the same: do bible study for myself, lead my children in daily devotions to God, pray 3 times a day, exercise, play with my children, keep my house clean, the laundry done, and have dinner ready at 5:30. I'm a stay-at-home-mom and this is my job. Yet you might be surprised to know that days, weeks, even months go by where none of these things get done. I am full of good intentions and everything is mapped out on paper, but in reality I'm a wretched servant. And in this season of my life I know how important it is to instill in my children the love of God. Yet, making breakfast for the kids can last well into the morning, Jessica's naps always occur when I need to do laundry or vacuum, and I'm always in a state of sheer exhaustion. Our family continues to thrive only because of our Father's loving care and mercy. He blesses my family every moment of every day in spite of my disobedience. I fight the good fight, but always fall short. I'm so grateful for my Lord and Savior, he was obedient to the death and suffered so much for me. And our Father loved us so much, that he let his only Son die that we might be forgiven of our sins. I can not imagine watching my son die and that realization makes me solemn. I feel like when I let the day-to-day cares of this world take over that I am not showing respect or appreciation for his sacrifice. I only pray that our Father shows mercy on me at he judgment seat. And I long for the Kingdom where my only thought and care is serving God and Jesus.